Category Archives: pain

The Woman in the Car

I don’t know how to describe what happened last night. After we dropped the kids off, Gary and I were driving back home, talking about the weekend and hashing out plans for dinner, when the headlights picked up a scene that took … Continue reading

Posted in car wreck, death, pain, people | 6 Comments

Jailhouse Waiting Room

Every weekend, for the past 5 months, I have spent a sizable chunk of my time sitting in an uncomfortable chair in the dirty, cramped waiting room of the jail, watching an hour and a half of my life march … Continue reading

Posted in Gary, jail, pain, psychology, stereotypes, women | 11 Comments


Call it old age. Call it wisdom, or maturity, or experience, or learning what is truly important in life, valuing love over points racked up against a meaningless enemy. I have learned this the hard way, the long and agonizing … Continue reading

Posted in anger, being a better person, control, helping others, love, pain | 4 Comments


It’s been almost a month since Gary was arrested, and over these last few weeks, I’ve been told “You are so strong” and urged to “be strong” more times than I can count. It has left me questioning what strong … Continue reading

Posted in fear, Gary, love, pain, strength, tears | 1 Comment

Hanging in There…

It seems crazy to keep up my blog during a time like this, but one reason is that I want to do it for Gary. I want to keep moving even when my heart and soul want to collapse. I … Continue reading

Posted in Gary, hurt, love, pain, trying to move on | 4 Comments

I Miss Him

Sometimes, something happens that changes your life forever. Or happens to you. I am standing in the middle of one of those crazy snowglobes, shaken up and turned upside down to send my world swirling and tumbling around me, and … Continue reading

Posted in anger, arrest, heartache, love, pain | 19 Comments

They’re Not Here

The kids aren’t here. I was looking forward to it so much, had their Easter surprises hidden and waiting, stopped at the store on the way home from work to pick up some Nilla Wafers since they scarfed them in … Continue reading

Posted in frustration, i miss them, kids, pain | 6 Comments